theme overhaul thoughts

 im hoping that i can change my theme on here soon, im not digging the colors anymore. i want it to be blue and cyber themed! 

time to scour the internet. again

novi stars!

 i found this super cute doll line that is called novi stars!!!

they're these aliens that came down to earth, seeking fashion and friends. they were begun in 2012 8D

so super cute! 

AUUUGH

 i hate hate hate my dad! hate.

i dont mean it in an emo kid way, or a spoiled brat way. i mean it in the "you-left-for-9-years-and-came-back-a-douche-way".

im not super mad at him for that, even. it was beyond his control and all! but i cant help but feel a displaced sort of anger. its not even anger at this point. expectancy is the word, maybe?

i cant even tell, i just know whatever he invites me to do i dont want to do it! hes totally awful at this whole dad thing. i understand the logic BEHIND being so bad but hes not putting in effort to fix it or himself.

all he does is fancy himself with stupid online girlfriends and then tells me all about them, only to dump them 2 weeks later or get dumped then jump accounts. he always blames her, always blames his "toxic" friends. i'd like to meet these bastards and see whats so bad. im sure theres nothing wrong with them, i think hes just fucking crazy. 

hes trying to invite me to help him build vr worlds and to vr concerts. like i wanna play in that stupid ass virtual playground. i want to go to real ones, dad, you goddamn idiot. 

hes so frickin detached from it all! he doesnt even want to come and see me anymore, too preoccupied with his dumbass girlfriends and his dumbass vr and his DUMB. ASS. ugh! i forgot what the fuck else i was gonna type!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im getting to heated about this. i need to cool tf down and do something else.

 

 im stoked to finally make a site thats just for me! 

carrds n shit just didnt cut it. they weren't as cool as these ¯\(°_o)/¯

currently listening to my mom's korn - issues cd. the mf keeps skipping but its whatever. its worth it cus it

sounds soooo much better on her bose stereo than on the computer. i love this fucking thing. trash has never sounded so good